ياريت تساعدوني بترجمة الجرنل الله يخليكم ساعدوني وربي يوفقكم ويسعدكم
4/7/
this word be a lot easier if kids would cooperate. But I guess it comes with being a Mom. (but it makes it more important for me to be an examples for my girls.) I actually at a lot in response to the stresses of being a mom > Mis behavior , or having my buttons pushed – drives me to binge- sometimes its the only way that makes me feel ok. its comfort …. or may be more like "numbness".
Later that day …
ok so I gave in and made brownies. The kicker is that while they were cooking I must have let my bedroom door open . My niece got up to the computer and pushed a crazy amount of buttons and was talking on my fax machine headset! I was fuming ! I set her in a timeout (kind oh not nicely) and had to undo all the things she had done to my computer. My temper flared up hardcore.. and those brownies were calling me. So… I had a little binge , but I did stop myself before my second brownie! A small success .
Again later that day…
make that… I;m not sure how many more brownies! but the best part is that grabbing my journal and writing is helping me use my hand for holding a pen rather than stuffing brownies in my mouth . If I didn’t have this to write in , the whole pan would be eaten! > So in a way i’ve had another success .